Slogging Away

 Oh my gosh, this last week has been bonkers! I cannot wait to go on my trip next weekend. A few days away is just what the doctor ordered. So many requests, my boss is being stubborn, it goes on and on and ON! Just, ugh. I hate going on trips sometimes. I feel like I deserve the break, but something goes wrong and work and then I feel all crummy. 

Otherwise, life rolls on. On Father's Day, we took my dad out for brunch. He let us know his brother is ready to retire. Currently, my dad lives in the apartment of his aunt - when she died, she willed it to our uncle (dad's brother) so now, if my uncle sells, my dad either goes and rents a room, lives with one of my siblings (no one has real space) OR he moves to the Philippines with his wife. Meanwhile, I am not earning enough to buy the condo which I would like to do - and I don't want to buy it when my dad lives there, LOL. Ugh, life!

Trouble Up Ahead

 I know no one is reading! I am just here expressing my thoughts. My grandad did visit, and it was pretty nice. We had to interact with one family member who is really nasty but we lived. We got a 4 generation picture, which is so sweet. Truly a few days to remember. My birthday passed and it was fun, I have been partying every weekend, LOL. No complaints! It feels good to be loved and appreciated. I have lots of birthdays to celebrate this month and I am so happy for that.

On the other news, my brother told us he wants to separate from my sister in law. Apparently things have been tough for a while :( ugh! the worst. so we are hoping they go to counseling and discuss their issues, i worry for my niece who is 8. my parents had the worst divorce and things are very rocky for us, still. I DO have a vacation booked however, so I am excited about that :) I am off to Bermuda with a friend for a few days at the end of June!

Life Rolls Along

 Work is busy, life is busy. My grandad who is 93, is coming to stay for a few nights in June - so I have to clean my room bit by bit - hot mess! I have done like .5% - pray for me. My car is on the chopping block, I just need to clean it and do some cosmetic touch ups before selling. I am just so lazy, can I outsource it?! Plus, cars are so expensive. It is so different from when I sold my car the last time about 5 years ago or so. Sigh! A lot to do and I want no parts of it. Meanwhile, May is shaping up to be very busy! I have a wedding reception and friend meet up next week, the long weekend in two weeks, then another friend meetup at the end of the month. Along with seeing a friend this Saturday. Throw in some mani/pedi time, it is going to be quite costly as usual. I am so looking forward to the summer and sunshine however. I hope everyone out there is being safe, I am as always sending love.

Easter!

 Well, my Easter long weekend is over. I took the Thursday before Good Friday off, in the hopes that I would be able to enjoy a nice drive out of the city, maybe spend some time with myself post wedding and emotional lows. Unfortunately, my car had other ideas! It decided not to start on Wednesday! Luckily my brother was coming into our area before his vacation, and he got it started! And I decided as soon as he is back, we are going car hunting! I am so over this car, lol. The used car market really is not great price wise, but it is time! Unfortunate, as I had hoped to drive the car for more than 5 years but :/! It is what it is.

Work continues to be busy, SO.MUCH.PAPER! Everyone has gone paperless but my office it seems. We did go to my sister's today for Easter, I told my mom I didn't want anyone to come over. She does too much and it becomes overwhelming, and people stay here til past my bedtime, LOL. We had a wonderful time except at the end of the afternoon, as we were leaving, my niece fainted!!!! I haven't seen anyone faint, let alone a young person so we were all pretty shocked. She had been leaning on my brother in law- so I thought they were playing around and she just fell but my sister of course was pretty distressed, as we all were. My niece was fine, but she got upset as we started to ask her what her name was etc. Her poor little sister was also freaked out, and honestly, it took a few years off me, I genuinely have not heard my sister sound so scared before. I think my niece is ok but it's just scary! So that will probably be with me for a few days. I hope everyone is doing well, and feeling *insert positive feeling here* xx

Wedding Wrap Up!

 My friend's wedding is over, one week ago today, she and her husband said I do. The weather was so bad, I forgot my toiletry bag, a bridesmaid forgot her DRESS, but it was an amazing day! My friend is really happy, and her husband is truly the one for her. I also saw the guy I last dated there, and I ended up pretty sad about that this week because I probably expected more to happen that really did. He has a girlfriend! 

We talked, it was nice, I texted him, it was nice, and he advised it was better we didn't keep our conversation going right now because of his relationship which I respect. Imagining the what ifs is really what had me sad this week, I feel too old to feel this way. It was also around this time that my friend and her husband started really dating, and that is when we went on our blind date. So I've been in my feels, sending teary voice notes etc. I haven't even told my friend yet (they're on their honeymoon, I ain't stupid!) *SIGH* So it's really been a week, and I send everyone love. I cannot wait for spring!

Not So Funny How Things Workout

 My friend's bachelorette party was a success. As I suspected, she would NOT want to get ready for dinner with 30 mins prep time in the washroom of the pole dancing studio 😐 (the other bridesmaid who suggested the aforementioned plan was glad I suggested the hotel room overnight LOL) A grand time was had by all. Unfortunately, my friend's dad is now dealing with health issues and that is clouding the joy that comes with getting married. My friend just got a new job in January as well, and if she isn't working, she is planning the wedding, and now dealing with her dad's health. When she got her prior job, her mom ended up getting a major health diagnosis as well, and it seems this is to be the same thing. I feel for my friend, sigh. We discussed that it is the same situation again, just with her dad now. 

We had a lot of snow, the garage door froze again, and my mom and step dad had to force the door open every day of the week except for today, lol. I would fix it, but my mom likes things done in her own way and she would rather walk around the house to get access when it is convenient for her. Maybe one day she will need to get in, the door will be frozen, and that is when she will get upset enough to get it fixed. No one else's on the street freezes, just ours! Annoying. Today, I am hoping to maybe go to the grocery, but if I don't - I don't mind too much. Sending love to everyone, especially Sam, Kim, Hilogene and T'Pol (who lost family in the Earthquake and is I am sure dealing with a LOT otherwise)

Busy Busy Me!

 Well, the wedding passed and I got last weekend to relax. This week, I worked, saw my cousin from out of twon (who is in town, ha!) twice, saw friends last night, and kept on the planning of the bachelorette of my bestie - along with helping her make small decisions about our hotel room for the wedding, and booking her haircut/dye appt for her LOL. I love helping out. I am bummed though, as my bestie's cousin just texted me to say she cannot come to the bachelorette. 👎👎 Now, this cousin let us use her Disney+ for free, and has had a difficult life. So my friend holds her dearly in her heart. But she didn't come to the bridal shower and now she is not even coming to the bachelorette (and I paid for her spot - there's $40 gone). My friend is going to be disappointed, because she definitely was not happy when her cousin missed the shower 🥲 

All the while life goes on for me, I think of Kim, Sam, and Hilogene and their lives unfolding so differently than how they anticipated. Send them all love, and anyone who stops here love as well.